I’m sitting on the last row of the plane, 30F, window seat, always window seat, next to the person who has made this trip possible and the lavatories. Yes, the bathrooms. Which, on a six hour flight, is not the best seat in the house considering everyone and their mother has used it during the last few hours. But really, it’s not as gross as it sounds. Maybe one day, when I’m flying to Hawaii to shoot a gorgeous wedding I’ll be flying first class. And when that does happen, I’m still going to be wearing my sweats and carrying a bag full of snacks, the only difference will be that I’ll be more comfortable reading my book for hours at a time. But for now, I’m here. I love it and I’m not complaining. Besides, it was me who procrastinated on saying yes to this whole trip so Eddie didn’t book it until somewhat recently. Meeee? Procrastinate? It’s a hard concept to grasp.
There is an adorable woman sitting across from us with a little baby girl that looks like she is about four months old. The baby leans on her moms shoulder and stares at me with her beautiful brown eyes while she tries to fall asleep. Surprisingly, the occasional crying doesn’t bother me because of how adorable she is and the way her mom holds her is covered in so much love and understanding, you can feel it and it distracts me from the crying. For some reason tears start forming in the corner of my eyes and I turn to my right. I lean on the corner of the window and stare at the clouds. Sigh. My favorite part of flying. A million things run through my mind, but the beauty of the gigantic cotton balls make it so that I feel calm. Deep breath.
And among all of the things that come to mind, Lili and Lola are one of them. I may not know what it’s like to hold a child in my arms and feel like a legit mom but I do know what it’s like to have two little wanna-be daughters. And right now, that’s enough for me. I know this because I miss their hairy little faces already. I don’t know how I’m going to do the next four weeks without them. Another deep breath. I take my book that I’ve been glued to the entire morning, and while Eddie leans his head back and closes his eyes in the seat next to me, I dive back into the lives of the characters from my book for the next few hours.
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I wrote this on the plane yesterday and then my laptop died so I didn’t get a chance to post it. Now I’m in my pjs at my brothers house and getting ready to take this entire day to do nothing but lounge around and possibly get my nails done. Anyway, so of course it only seems appropriate that I post photos of my little girls. Lili on the left. Lola on the right.
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