It’s that feeling that seems to paralyze anything positive I had in mind. The feeling that makes me want to roll up in a ball and stay in a corner, or better yet, in bed because at least that would be more comfortable right? The feeling that I can no longer continue moving forward. The one that makes me cry out of frustration and leaves me cold and confused. It scares me and I hate it. Oddly enough though, I’ve learned to also love it. I’ve even learned to appreciate that it exists.
The fear to fail.
I hate it for the obvious reasons, but I love it because it’s when that feeling nearly consumes me that I feel renewed. The friends who reach out to protect and remind me of the things that stand beyond my fear of failure help me come out from my rolled up position in my little corner. Without that feeling I would surely take much longer to realize and appreciate the wonderful people that I have in my life. The amount of friends that I consider family probably doesn’t even reach double digits. And I’m not talking about the ‘third cousin who I’ve never met or the aunt and uncle who I still can’t figure out how we’re related’ type family, I’m talking about ‘mom and dad, brother and sister’ type family. Yes, that close. Just a small handful, but it’s a powerful one. One that uplifts me when I’m at my lowest whether that be in my spiritual, personal or professional life and one that laughs and plays with me when I forget about that feeling.
It’s amazing that I’ve had friends like that since I was a child. While going through the session I’ll be posting soon I realized that it’s because of friends like the ones I described above that I feel like I can continue on with many things and one of them is my photography business. Of course the fear to fail will always be there. But when I feel it, it’s a reminder of the support and love that I have in my life. I’ll keep going and I won’t stop because I’ve been reminded of the things that stand beyond my fear of failure.
So with that in mind, here are a few ‘behind the scene’ photos of Eddie and I photographing one of my favorite people and one who definitely falls into the above described group. Be sure to stop by again soon to see the full post!
This is the first time I post a behind the scene look with Eddie in the photo! HA! Be sure to leave him some love in the comment box so he doesn’t hate me for posting this 
P.S. I know he’s ridiculously handsome and everything, but please refrain from any inappropriate comments. He’s mine and that’s the end of it k?
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